Today is the first post, of hopefully many. This category is about myself as a discouraged developer, although it’s not when I first became discouraged, but rather the start of when I decided to write it down. I’m sure I’m not alone in being discouraged, and I’m sure there are others that feel worse off, but this blog is about the person I can relate to the most. It is also about the only person I should compare myself to. Me.
Circumstances fall differently on others, and I should not be quick to envy them. My life is about me, and how I deal with it. Yours is about you. There are too many unknowns and differences of opinions for me to compare myself to you. If I seem like a walking contradiction or hypocrite, it is likely because I’m having trouble articulating what I actually mean. Or perhaps I don’t really know what I want myself. Opinions and desires, if not strongly rooted in something can switch on a dime. And this area of my life is definitely shallow rooted. At least that’s what it appears to me to be like.
This “category” on my site will tell the true tale of how I go about my life in regards to development, programming code that is. I took it in college and got a job coding. It’s what I do best. Lately, I’ve second guessed my work, or triple guessed it. I’ve doubted my dreams and even contemplated giving them up. One particular post I’ve read suggested that doing so would open the door for depression. I guess it depends on the level of dedication or how strongly you are attached to your dream(s). In my case it is strong.
In the past day or so, after much contemplating on giving up my dreams, I decided to start this Discouraged Developer Journal. Either it will tell the tale of a discouraged developer who never gave up on his dream and ultimately accomplished them, or pose as a warning to those who can spot the signs they need to avoid the doomed path I follow.
* To anyone who reads this, be prepared for a rambling, scatter brained journal entries as I work out my thoughts. There maybe large gaps between posts, or so frequent as to (witty one-liner).