de Paul Warren » patience

Before and After

Foobar — Mon, 30 Nov 2009 02:52:37 +0000

Being a soon-to-be father is a little different than being a mother. Not that I’ve experienced both, but at least for me, it’s still a little surreal. But now that the baby is moving more, and significantly, it is beginning to feel a little more real.

It’s funny in a non funny kind of way. I once thought of posting an entry of how my dreams are starting to fade away. Things that might have been attainable several years ago, are no longer because of time or responsibilities. While at the time, I was saddened to see them leave, they fade in comparison to my apprehension to my being a parent now (soon). The complications our child is going through and what my wife has to endure, all I’m concerned about now, is her well-being. It’s tough feeling so helpless when you’d give anything to help out.

Now that Medea is born, the complications continue. She’s been through a lot but it might be a month at least before everything is normal. It’s frustrating to say the least. We want her home. We want her to feed like a normal baby. But despite all that’s gone on, we’ve been rather calm throughout the whole ordeal.

We had plenty to be worried about. Major surgery on a newborn’s neck. It affected the jugular vein. It could have been stressful for us, but we felt at peace. Knowing the chain of events from when Pam was found to be pregnant, to the surgery, it gave us peace and confidence that this wouldn’t be the end.

Events of late wouldn’t worry us now.

Just test and build our patience.

Two ads & a side order of patience.

antihero — Thu, 10 May 2007 01:47:59 +0000

And so the stage I dread the most. Advertisement. I know it’s a vital step in any success, but I’m not good at it and dread doing it myself. Recently I have finished making a game I have been developing for about 4 months. The first month was steady work where the latter three months were on and off development. The game itself is a strategy game based off of two open source games. It is most similar to the popular Risk games and their variations, with a few noticeable differences.

The game is now ready for the public to play. But there’s one small detail, in order to attract players, I need players. It’s the catch 22. So what I need to do is find some way of having people join but also be patient in the early community life of the game. Do I spend some money to setup advertisements on other websites? Do I offer prizes for the Nth player to join…

I guess I have to do some sort of advertising, but I want to do what is best for the site. I don’t want to attract hundreds of people right away, to only have them leave and never come back because it was the wrong crowd. But I also don’t want to wait 10 years for the game to gain light and catch on either. So I’m off to do some advertising I guess. But if you haven’t seen any of my ads, head on to www.ikonquest.com. Feedback, suggestions, complaints or general comments are welcomed.

Pending Machine

antihero — Thu, 10 May 2007 01:47:32 +0000

I feel like everything is pending right now. Netfile used by the Canadian Revenue Agency is down and I’m waiting to file my taxes. My laptop isn’t working and hasn’t for a while and I’m waiting for it to be fixed. I’ve recently filed an appeal and I’m waiting on the decision of that. My business is pending as I need to see if I am approved for the self employment benefits. If I go ahead and start the business, I won’t eligible. My current project is taking a lot longer than originally planned. I’m losing my focus and I’m eagerly hoping for the finish date. I have a friend sending me some sketches but he’s ran into some holdups keeping them from reaching me. Getting a new server for my websites will have to wait until I find out if I can get one for a good price. I have other game ideas that will have to wait until iKonquest is finished, and possibly the business has started.

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Being jobless is beginning to take it’s toll. I love being able to sit at home and create the things of my mind, but reality is starting to rear its ugly head and getting in my way. Getting a job cannot wait. But getting one will mean everything else must.